I'm doing it again and again.. i really can't tahan myself.. feeling so dumb n stupid.. but luckily, i've been quite busy.. So, at least, i can get it off my mind..
Each time i hear a depressing story from someone, i tend to tell myself this "See la..Ppl so cham..worse than u ar..still feel bad worr.." in order to feel better..
However, the naked truth is, it doesn't work... Instead, my mind still wants to spoil that instant moment by programm ing this is my head- "Eh...Why can't u compare with someone who's doing better than u ar?? Even as kids, i'm compared with my cousins who do well academically..."
It's rather sickening to ponder that way.. But don't ask me.. I'm not the one to be blamed..It's my MIND!!!! I hate it!!!! Feeling detached to my mind, I assume that it should only be logical to say i'm totally a weird person.. My mind is working on its own and it isn't allowing my true self to take control of the situtation...
Fine.. Just let it be..Maybe I shall figure it out someday...
Cheers...
April 27, 2007 Permalink Comments (1)
No comments:
Post a Comment