Days are crawling... And it isn't fun... Although I had a karaoke session last night, my good friend suddenly told me something shocking and that would make a drastic change in her and my life... The worse part is that I cant help her... I'm in a slump now, and I hate myself for not being able to help her...
Something is living inside her which will eventually make her weak and fragile... It's not that she doesn't want to get rid of it, it's just that it can't go off... A time bomb is ticking and she may just leave anytime... And I can't do anything about it...
At times, I feel that I'm bringing lots of bad luck to people around me... In high school, good friends left me one by one... Then, 'It' left me... Now, it's a person who I can share my thoughts, visions and someone who really cares unconditionally has to go...
I'm ready anytime.. Life's useless.... Totally useless if a chance isn't given to us... Does she have a chance? -NO- Do I have a chance? -NO-
No matter how hard we try, we seem to fail... Honestly, I can't get up anymore... Most people would say everything is possible if we try, but I would say;- action speaks louder than words... They can talk all they want but at the end, they can't even do what they say... So just forget it...
I will definitely leave once most things are completed as I realized nothing can be finished... Just have to deal with it personally and I hope I can leave with a total peace of mind...
Remember... we are different... Our experiences differ... So don't compare... It only makes things worse... I may be a lunatic but as long as I feel what's best for me, I will do it, no matter what it takes...
Cheers and Goodbye~~
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