Don't Fake It!!!

Today, the cold hearted creature offered to help me after reading all of my blogs... Of course, I was shocked... I can't believe 'It' would actually say that and even booked an appointment for me to visit a psychologist this Thursday... Wow! It's like a miracle... 'It' actually cares!!! It sounds that I am the one who needs help but I think 'It' is the one who needs it more than I do... Cz 'It' is INHUMANE... 'It' isn't like us... 'It' is cold blooded...

Wait a minute... Think again... Do you think 'It' is doing it for me? After analyzing the situation, 'It' is only faking it... 'It' is doing this so that 'It' would not feel guilty for what 'It' has caused in my pathetic life... Come'n man...I'm not that dumb!!! Please la... Don't treat me like a kid...

And 'It' was actually telling me to get up just like a child who has fallen on the ground.. But what will happen if a child always gets up when he falls but is pushed again and again till he drops heavily to the ground? One fine day, the child will definitely not get up anymore and will lay flat down...

Also, giving life a chance is crucial and I agree with this... However, have you ever wondered that it can be sick and tiring to keep changing when everyone is against you? No matter how hard you try to escape from it, changing for the better is advisable only if you are given the chance... Yes, I've given myself numerous chances but I'm always being kicked and pushed around like nobody's business.... How would you feel if you were me huh???

People can say 101 positive words and comments because they have not experienced to be betrayed, cheated and deluded by someone they trust most... I agree that some of them have experienced it, but our tresholds are different...I am not them and vice versa...

Everyone can say I'm making excuses... Say all they want but I stand firm on my decisions... My stubborness can be my downfall but who cares??? I don't and will not care what people have to say about me... There're many lives ahead... I may rot six feet under but my mind will never... Why should I torture myself in this life when there're plenty coming ahead???

'It' only knows how to COMPARE, LECTURE and TEACH me... 'It' doesn't know that 'It' doesn't have the right to do so... "It' began and ended everything abruptly without giving me any chance... 'It' is so self-centered... Nowadays, 'It' has changed a lot... But life would be different if 'It' was a changed person initially... So 'It' doesn't have the right to put the blame on me...

'It' doesn't even realized that I've become a changed a person... I don't care a damn about anything which I think what I should had done long ago.. After all, 'It' was the one who told me that I shouldn't care or do anything unneccessarily... And that I should always live for myself first before others... As you can see, I'm living my life the way I WANT... Not others... 'It' is so blind, brainless and stupid that 'It' couldn't even notice the differences between the old and new me...

What I hate most is that I am always not given a chance.. From school days till now... It never ends... Why do I have to give others a chance but a chance is never given to me??? Think again... If you were me, what would you do??? I've fallen a dozen of times and got back up again.. I'm truly sick and tired and I want to continue my life without the present memories inhibiting inside me... Another form of life awaits everyone... No one can escape that...

Cheers...