I Can't Take All The Blame...

I keep contemplating whether I really need professional help.. Whether I should really see a psychologist like 'It' suggested...

But why am I the only one who should be seeking professional help? Why isn't 'It' going with me together as a couple in the session to work things out? Why am I taking all the responsibilty? Just because I plan to leave this world? Is 'It' sure that I should be the only person to attend the session?

See... 'It' doesn't even care or bother to reconcile differences... 'It' doesn't value the meaning of relationship; being together, living as a united couple... I cannot be the only one to seek treatment... What causes this to happen? 'It' should bear some of the responsibility

People just cant fall out of love because of nothing... There must be a reason... 'It' said 'It' had tried to have feelings for me, but 'It' failed... Did 'It' really try hard? I personally don't think so... How much time and effort did 'It' put in? Did 'It' told me how 'It' really feel?

From the beginning, I knew that 'It' was a quiet person but as a partner, we should've communicated better... I had always done the talking but 'It' seldom and rarely shares how 'It' felt about anything... To 'It', I was some sort of semi-transparent...

If 'It' had sense that there was something wrong in the relationship, 'It' should had taken the both of us for couselling...

Life isn't just about yourself... 'It' keeps saying that I'm forcing 'It' by threatening to leave... But 'It' doesn't know that this isn't the reason... I'm tired for having to revive our relationship by creating excitement... Has 'It' done that? If yes, can 'It' proof it to me??-NO-

'It' is just to selfish and self-centered... 'It' makes me look that I'm the guilty one by saying I had overdone things... Well, if 'It' had already knew it for a long time, like I said, 'It' would arrange a counselling session for the both of us... Not just me alone... Is this enough proof that 'It' has not appreciated this relationship? I think it is...

Cheers & Goodbye....I shall be off soon...