Contented

It should had been a great weekend for me as I had companies... A little bit of window shopping and having guests around made my weekend... Supposed to be...

Like yesterday, I finally had the chance to whip up something nice for dinner for my friends; although one of them didn't turn up... It was still great...

However, the back of my mind keeps telling me that it was useless as someone whom I truly love doesn't even want to dine with me anymore... No more tasting his favourite dishes, no more sharing his opinion on my cooking and etc...

As a matter of fact, I realized that my cooking had deteriorate... Why? Because there isn't much love in it... I'm trying so very hard to tell myself that my friends are giving me an opportunity and chance to motivate me again... And that's the most important aspect that I should be looking at.. No whining or fretting about the pathetic issue anymore...

It was great though, just not as great that it should had been... I'm still thinking when can I cook for someone whom I really love, besides my family? Will I have the chance? Or do you think I will never have the chance again? Hmm... Very subjective question...

Something struck me yesterday.... My friend said that we should be happy when we have a loving family even if we do not have much money... Yes, yes... I agree... I have a warm home and nice parents, although at times my dad can be quite irritating... But why do I still feel lonely? Shouldn't I be contented with my life? It isn't that miserable after all...

I feel that there's a missing part in my life..It's small, but it's impact is rather big though... Why? Cz it was once filled up and a leakage is occuring now, causing a bottleneck everywhere else.. Sometimes it goes haywire and sometimes not... Besides, it's a good analogy to describe my ongoing cuckoo emotions...

Anyway, I should be contented... Great family, nice friends and a debt free life (at the moment)...

Cheers...