Is Life Complicated?

Once again, Life's so complicated... Why? Because I'm making it so... Simple things can be settled easily and yet, I tend to ponder too much over small issues..

Life's not a destination, life's a journey.. And I wonder why I am still unable to DRILL that into my head... There've been major changes in my life recently and I am quite amazed it happened within a short period..

Firstly, I quit my job, practically a 24-hour notice to continue my studies... Until this moment, this instance and this second, I am still thinking whether it was the right choice... I can't turn back, not now... Or else, I would end up in the cooking pot! My parents'll will literally 'cook' me alive!!!!!!!

Secondly, I've decided to open up my heart to someone really positive and great... Thanks to Michael for making my once dull and pathetic life colourful again... I love him dearly.. Someone who knows how to make me laugh when I'm down, and is always by my side, respects my thoughts and feelings, without making fun of them...

Finally, I'm thankful that my ex dumped me.. Or else, I wouldn't think that I would still be in demand... Although I am not a drop-dead gorgeous babe, but there are few people who are interested in me... Hahaha.... And I can't believe it.. Honestly, it had never ever crossed my mind that someone would want to be more than friends with me!!! Hahahaha!!!! Definitely feels great...

To forget the past is impossible but, I will make it a point to take that as a hard lesson learnt... Even thought when I feel that my life's getting more meaningful each day, I am still not contented..

Why? Because I'm facing a few issues... A conflict of interest within myself... I've Ms. Myself, Ms. Dumbass and Ms. Lovesick stuck with me... A snapshot of the 3 personalities are as follows:-

Ms. Myself- Wacky, crazy but rational... Always a thinker.. However, most of the time, she would think too much and ends up frustrated and agitated...

Ms. Dumbass- She cannot analyze thing properly, impatient, easily irritated by issues pertaining to studies, work and emotions...

Ms. Lovesick- To her, love's everything, nothing is superior than that.. Believes that sacrificing everything is the key to everlasting fairytale love... Only wants to be with the one she loves everyday, every minute, every second and every moment..

These 3 characters are always arguing with each other... Ms. Dumbass's constantly nagging Ms. Lovesick to let go the love of ther life, because she wants to have more time improving herself in her studies as she is so stupid...

On the other hand, Ms. Lovesick is lecturing Ms. Dumbass that love is the key to everything.. Anything can only be solved with true and pure love..

And then, Ms. Myself is constantly in a dilemma because she can't control the irrational arguments that Ms. Dumbass and Ms. Lovesick are fighting on... In the end, she feels bogged down by unnecessary issues and is stressed up for nothing... She keeps telling them to settle their problems themselves, but it seems that neither sides are listening to her...

What should Ms. Myself do? Should she kill Ms. Dumbass and Ms. Lovesick? Or should she just leave them alone? Conflicting thoughts and personalities will eventually conquer Ms. Myself if she doesn't eradicated either one of them...

Sigh... Once again... Life seems so complicated... I do hope it'll get better tomorrow.. Tomorrow is a brand new day... It should be good... Be positive... Even if I can't, I will make sure I'll do something about it as I've Michael sticking to me like 'elephant gum.' Hahahaha.... And I love it..
Also, I've my hot sexy, babe friend who often reminds me that life's a journey, not a destination..

Cheers...