As usual, I love to share real life stories with people... Moral values, ethics, judgements, rationality and emotions play a crucial part in our daily lifes which we will have to go through and experience as long as we breathe...Even with a ventilator attached..No kidding...
My friend who had read my entire blog asked me what happened 4 to 5 years back... He kept on pestering me to tell him the truth since I love sharing pathetic stories.. Hahaha... Well, if he is reading this, I have to say sorry... I can't reveal it... The only thing that I can tell him is that the COLD HEARTED BASTARD did that do me... And the physical PAIN inflicted to me was EXCRUTIATING.. On top of that, it caused me to be temporarily INSANE (That is why my blog is named after it)... Also, I was extremely very EMOTIONALLY DRAINED... He is and always WILL BE a PERFECT EXAMPLE of an IRRESPONSIBLE creature (He is not fit to be called a human)... Had fun, then dumped me out of the blue...
Well, I don't put all the blame on him because he is such a naive little being trapped in a 26 YEARS-OLD BODY... IMMATURED and UNSTABLE both in career and mentality... Honestly, he DOESN'T HAVE THE BRAINS... I may seem evil and bias towards this creature but HEY!!! I could be evil but not as WICKED as him... You know something, I am POSITIVELY SURE if it happens to his CURRENT GIRLFRIEND, he would be like a CHICKEN running HELTER SKELTER; DISORIENTATED... And I can assure that...
By the way, he's also born in the year of the CHICKEN... Hahahah... Furthermore, he MAY just stick for a while with her and later, he WILL LOSE feelings for her... Like how he had told me (I'd written it in the previous blog- DOUBLE SLAPS & MULTIPLE STABS)... I truly PRAY that it won't happen to his INNOCENT partner... Or else, she'll lose her mind... As a woman myself, I won't keep any grudge with people who is not in contact with me...
So friend, if you are reading this, are you happy now? You can stop pestering me already... Hahaha... Figure it out yourself... You are a man yourself... You should know what will make you VERY AFRAID if 'SOMETHING HAPPENED' when you were in a relationship... Kekeke... Curious who is he? It's the alphabet before 'U' and after 'B' in my FRIENDSTER...
Adios Amigo...
Cheers~~~
Monday, November 5, 2007
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Theories...
Finally, exams are over... Am finally feeling relieved, but this is only temporary... I still have to push myself to do the best for at least one more year... Hopefully, getting an MBA really does pay off one day...
Am just feeling happy that life seems brighter now... I've great companies, nice people around me keeping me motivated all the time!!! What more can I ask right??? For instance, a few friends of mine, keep telling me that I would be a good wife because I always worry for the other party, continuously striving for improvement and I can cook!!! Hahaha... It does brighten up my day though...Hehehe...
People you once thought that couldn't be a good friend can indeed be a good friend... And even a superb listener too... Matured and wise, he gives practical advises that are easy to follow provided if I keep an open-mind... Till today, my stubborness is my downfall... Really have to be very careful on that...
Besides, I am happy that I once felt lost and cheated... If not because of it, I would still be a naive person who is dumb and silent...There is always something to learn from history... And I've learnt a few very important theories:-
"There is no point crying for a HEARTLESS and COMPLACENT person who does not cry for you; CRY for whom is close to you, SPIRITUALLY and MENTALLY; for your tears need your ultimate guidance..."
"Use your INTUITION to invest in a blue chip...Failing to do so, you may end up losing your life.."
"Being attached is a blessing... However, ATTACHEMENTS can turn sour if you are not prepared.."
"Love with your HEART and SOUL; learn to APPRECIATE your partner... To love and be loved in return is the key..."
"Do not TAKE FOR GRANTED that any pleasant situation will last; for IMPERMANANCE will be here soon..."
Although most people will not agree with my theories but I don't give a damn!!! Hahaha... Think further... Open up your mind and you'll see the rationality in it... People tend to say it's stupid.. But why? It's because they DON'T want to face the REALITY...
Cheers...
Am just feeling happy that life seems brighter now... I've great companies, nice people around me keeping me motivated all the time!!! What more can I ask right??? For instance, a few friends of mine, keep telling me that I would be a good wife because I always worry for the other party, continuously striving for improvement and I can cook!!! Hahaha... It does brighten up my day though...Hehehe...
People you once thought that couldn't be a good friend can indeed be a good friend... And even a superb listener too... Matured and wise, he gives practical advises that are easy to follow provided if I keep an open-mind... Till today, my stubborness is my downfall... Really have to be very careful on that...
Besides, I am happy that I once felt lost and cheated... If not because of it, I would still be a naive person who is dumb and silent...There is always something to learn from history... And I've learnt a few very important theories:-
"There is no point crying for a HEARTLESS and COMPLACENT person who does not cry for you; CRY for whom is close to you, SPIRITUALLY and MENTALLY; for your tears need your ultimate guidance..."
"Use your INTUITION to invest in a blue chip...Failing to do so, you may end up losing your life.."
"Being attached is a blessing... However, ATTACHEMENTS can turn sour if you are not prepared.."
"Love with your HEART and SOUL; learn to APPRECIATE your partner... To love and be loved in return is the key..."
"Do not TAKE FOR GRANTED that any pleasant situation will last; for IMPERMANANCE will be here soon..."
Although most people will not agree with my theories but I don't give a damn!!! Hahaha... Think further... Open up your mind and you'll see the rationality in it... People tend to say it's stupid.. But why? It's because they DON'T want to face the REALITY...
Cheers...
Saturday, September 29, 2007
Women! Don't Take Unecessary Risks!!!
Before I begin, I would like to share about my day today...
Finally, I've some peace of mind... I've completed most of my assignments... After so many hours, days and weeks spent, I can finally breathe!!! Hahah.. Although exam is just around the corner, I feel that completing my assignments have reduced the burdens on my shoulder...
In the process of finishing the awful and time-consuming coursework, Mic had tremendously helped me a lot... And for the first time in my life, someone actually cares about what I write, what I think and what I feel about my work... He was there to comment, to give suggestions and most importantly, he gave his utmost emotional support... You know me lah... I am kinda of a 'cuckoo' person... Hahaha... My mood sometimes fluctuates... Could be due to PMS... Hehehe...
I had an amazing time today... Being able to catch 'Transformers' although I am a few months late.. Hahah... And Mid Valley is still showing it... It's worth it coz' I had the coupon 'Buy 1 free 1.' Just RM 12 for two persons...
It feels good to be able to hold someone you love, just walking and talking and having a great time together.... It doesn't matter if you don't get to buy anything you like while window shopping, but the 'feeling' is there... PROVIDED if you walk and talk to someone who is not boring and mundane, and someone who doesn't talk rubbish... And never ever go out with someone who cannot 'open' his/ her mouth while he/ she is next to you... It's just like having to prise open someone's mouth which is filled with pure gold or even platinum... Hehehe...
Like a friend said, 'Life is great when if you think it is.' Or else, life will be hopeless, dim and insecure if you are not positive enough to look at the bright side when you feel that life is crashing... So what if your life isn't going the way you want it to be? Are you going to die? Even if you were, what makes you think that it is the end? Have you ever thought of life after death? Nobody knows...
Even if someone betrays or deceives you, this is a lesson that we have to learn... And never allow history to repeat itself again... For instance, I will never go back to the person who've had betrayed me... Yes, everyone deserves a second chance, but sometimes, it is just not worth the risk...Ok.. We are going into the topic...
I once had a friend... She had a very good relationship with her boyfriend for several years... However, she was cheated by her boyfriend... Her man went after a disgusting whore although the latter was physically gorgeous... Later, her man decided that the whore isn't his cup of tea any decided to make up with my friend... And now, both of them are living happily as husband and wife and even has 2 kids- A boy and a girl..
The question is, "Is it worth the risk?" Yes, life is full or risks, why not treat just go for it? But you see, my friend has failed to see and analyze further... What happens if her husband cheats on her again? She may not be lucky and may end up in a divorce... After all, there is a Chinese saying "Do it once, there'll be a second time again..." What will happen to her INNOCENT CHILDREN if her husband leaves her? Moreover, she is not a capable woman... She does not earn much and still needs money from her husband... How is she going to fend for herself and her kids??? Even if she can make ends meet, her kids will lose a father figure... Worse still, they will not have all the best due to financial constraints (ie: education).
Others tell me that the scenario will be even worse if your husband cheats you after you are married and has no previous 'bad' track record... Yes, it is true... You may face the shock of your lifetime!!! Buy HEY!! WAKE UP WOMAN!! If a person has already have a 'scarred' record with solid evidences, why do you want to take the risks??? Do you want to have another blow of your life again??? Do you want history to repeat???? Have you not learnt your lesson??? Do you possibly think he is a blue chip when you know he is a CASANOVA??? Hah.. I doubt it...
You may say I am very negative on this issue, but seriously, it is not worth it... Maybe I am skeptical that people can change for the better but most of them don't... Often, it is the opposite.. Hehehe... About my friend, I doubt she will ever have a tremendously happy life the way she thinks... When you are hurt before, I am positively sure you will always have some grudge on it and sometimes think about the issue... And what I've mentioned above, kids will be the one who suffer the most... So you see, do you want all these to happen? Just wishing her the best of luck... I doubt her relationship will last :p
That is why we, especially women must equip ourselves... Be capable, productive and smart... With proper education, knowledge and wisdom, we can excel even if we fail in any relationships.. At least, you have your own financial independence as you don't have to rely on solely on your husband... The best part is, the possibility of your kids having a better education and life is higher... People always think that the ALIMONY given will be able to support the children, but COME'N la!!! YOUR HUSBAND DUMPED YOU AND NOW YOU WANT HIS MONEY??? SO CHEAPSKATE!!! Please la.. Women out there, please DON'T say "IT SHOULD BE YOURS!!!" Cz, you'll be implying that you still can't live without him in your life!!! What is the difference between you and a whore then???
This blog is to educate women not to be stupid in life... Do not take unnecessary risks... Hahaha...
Cheers ;)
Finally, I've some peace of mind... I've completed most of my assignments... After so many hours, days and weeks spent, I can finally breathe!!! Hahah.. Although exam is just around the corner, I feel that completing my assignments have reduced the burdens on my shoulder...
In the process of finishing the awful and time-consuming coursework, Mic had tremendously helped me a lot... And for the first time in my life, someone actually cares about what I write, what I think and what I feel about my work... He was there to comment, to give suggestions and most importantly, he gave his utmost emotional support... You know me lah... I am kinda of a 'cuckoo' person... Hahaha... My mood sometimes fluctuates... Could be due to PMS... Hehehe...
I had an amazing time today... Being able to catch 'Transformers' although I am a few months late.. Hahah... And Mid Valley is still showing it... It's worth it coz' I had the coupon 'Buy 1 free 1.' Just RM 12 for two persons...
It feels good to be able to hold someone you love, just walking and talking and having a great time together.... It doesn't matter if you don't get to buy anything you like while window shopping, but the 'feeling' is there... PROVIDED if you walk and talk to someone who is not boring and mundane, and someone who doesn't talk rubbish... And never ever go out with someone who cannot 'open' his/ her mouth while he/ she is next to you... It's just like having to prise open someone's mouth which is filled with pure gold or even platinum... Hehehe...
Like a friend said, 'Life is great when if you think it is.' Or else, life will be hopeless, dim and insecure if you are not positive enough to look at the bright side when you feel that life is crashing... So what if your life isn't going the way you want it to be? Are you going to die? Even if you were, what makes you think that it is the end? Have you ever thought of life after death? Nobody knows...
Even if someone betrays or deceives you, this is a lesson that we have to learn... And never allow history to repeat itself again... For instance, I will never go back to the person who've had betrayed me... Yes, everyone deserves a second chance, but sometimes, it is just not worth the risk...Ok.. We are going into the topic...
I once had a friend... She had a very good relationship with her boyfriend for several years... However, she was cheated by her boyfriend... Her man went after a disgusting whore although the latter was physically gorgeous... Later, her man decided that the whore isn't his cup of tea any decided to make up with my friend... And now, both of them are living happily as husband and wife and even has 2 kids- A boy and a girl..
The question is, "Is it worth the risk?" Yes, life is full or risks, why not treat just go for it? But you see, my friend has failed to see and analyze further... What happens if her husband cheats on her again? She may not be lucky and may end up in a divorce... After all, there is a Chinese saying "Do it once, there'll be a second time again..." What will happen to her INNOCENT CHILDREN if her husband leaves her? Moreover, she is not a capable woman... She does not earn much and still needs money from her husband... How is she going to fend for herself and her kids??? Even if she can make ends meet, her kids will lose a father figure... Worse still, they will not have all the best due to financial constraints (ie: education).
Others tell me that the scenario will be even worse if your husband cheats you after you are married and has no previous 'bad' track record... Yes, it is true... You may face the shock of your lifetime!!! Buy HEY!! WAKE UP WOMAN!! If a person has already have a 'scarred' record with solid evidences, why do you want to take the risks??? Do you want to have another blow of your life again??? Do you want history to repeat???? Have you not learnt your lesson??? Do you possibly think he is a blue chip when you know he is a CASANOVA??? Hah.. I doubt it...
You may say I am very negative on this issue, but seriously, it is not worth it... Maybe I am skeptical that people can change for the better but most of them don't... Often, it is the opposite.. Hehehe... About my friend, I doubt she will ever have a tremendously happy life the way she thinks... When you are hurt before, I am positively sure you will always have some grudge on it and sometimes think about the issue... And what I've mentioned above, kids will be the one who suffer the most... So you see, do you want all these to happen? Just wishing her the best of luck... I doubt her relationship will last :p
That is why we, especially women must equip ourselves... Be capable, productive and smart... With proper education, knowledge and wisdom, we can excel even if we fail in any relationships.. At least, you have your own financial independence as you don't have to rely on solely on your husband... The best part is, the possibility of your kids having a better education and life is higher... People always think that the ALIMONY given will be able to support the children, but COME'N la!!! YOUR HUSBAND DUMPED YOU AND NOW YOU WANT HIS MONEY??? SO CHEAPSKATE!!! Please la.. Women out there, please DON'T say "IT SHOULD BE YOURS!!!" Cz, you'll be implying that you still can't live without him in your life!!! What is the difference between you and a whore then???
This blog is to educate women not to be stupid in life... Do not take unnecessary risks... Hahaha...
Cheers ;)
Thursday, September 27, 2007
Behind Every Succesful Man, There is a Woman; Behind Every Sucessful Woman, There Is No Man...
Yup… Is the statement true? Do you agree with it? Do you think that behind every successful man there is a woman but behind every successful woman there isn’t any man? Hmm… Very subjective..
I would like to think that there is no definite answer to the statement… But…Again… there are some facts to it…
Look at Bill Clinton.. He has Hillary…Tony Blair has Cherie… Bush has Laura… Osama has few wives… and my dad has my mom..Hahaha… On the other hand, is there a man behind Sophia Gandhi? Is there someone behind Arroyo?
So then, is the female species more superior than men? Well, I don’t want to be bias, really… It’s just that science has proven it to us… Female has XX chromosomes but male has XY chromosomes.. Thus, man actually need our female part of the chromosome in order for them to be a ‘man’… No wonder men have NIPPLES too.. Hahahah… Why? Because they are partially made up from the females ‘X’ chromosome… Hehehe…
Besides, I do see that there are many successful women out there who do not need a man behind them.. Yes, I don’t disagree that there are women who have support behind them.. It’s just that most of them don’t… This is definitely an undeniable fact..
Hence, it doesn’t matter if you are OUTCAST or DUMPED by any man, because indirectly, they are giving you a chance of the lifetime to be one of the most successful woman on earth!!! BRAVO… And they don’t even realize it… Hehehe… I am brutally honest here.. Women can unleash their potentials within drastically and they can be extremely wicked to get what they want… They will achieve whatever they desire in order to prove to men that they are not useless creatures..
Again.. I tend not to only side my own species… Well, like me.. I have someone behind me to keep me going.. Someone who shares my vision and dreams…And I’m well respected… So, I’ll have to rephrase the statement…
I would like to think that there is no definite answer to the statement… But…Again… there are some facts to it…
Look at Bill Clinton.. He has Hillary…Tony Blair has Cherie… Bush has Laura… Osama has few wives… and my dad has my mom..Hahaha… On the other hand, is there a man behind Sophia Gandhi? Is there someone behind Arroyo?
So then, is the female species more superior than men? Well, I don’t want to be bias, really… It’s just that science has proven it to us… Female has XX chromosomes but male has XY chromosomes.. Thus, man actually need our female part of the chromosome in order for them to be a ‘man’… No wonder men have NIPPLES too.. Hahahah… Why? Because they are partially made up from the females ‘X’ chromosome… Hehehe…
Besides, I do see that there are many successful women out there who do not need a man behind them.. Yes, I don’t disagree that there are women who have support behind them.. It’s just that most of them don’t… This is definitely an undeniable fact..
Hence, it doesn’t matter if you are OUTCAST or DUMPED by any man, because indirectly, they are giving you a chance of the lifetime to be one of the most successful woman on earth!!! BRAVO… And they don’t even realize it… Hehehe… I am brutally honest here.. Women can unleash their potentials within drastically and they can be extremely wicked to get what they want… They will achieve whatever they desire in order to prove to men that they are not useless creatures..
Again.. I tend not to only side my own species… Well, like me.. I have someone behind me to keep me going.. Someone who shares my vision and dreams…And I’m well respected… So, I’ll have to rephrase the statement…
" Behind every successful man, there will definitely be a woman, But behind every successful woman, there may be a GENTLEMAN…."
You see… A man and a gentleman is different.. Why? Let me enlighten you a little.. Hehehe…
Man- Physical, Alter-ego, Demanding, Masculine, Unreasonable, Callous, Male Chauvinist
Gentleman- Tame, Altruistic, Philanthropic, Romantic, Caring, Idealistic
I used to have a ‘man’ behind me and no wonder I wasn’t successful at all!!! Hahaha… As compared to now, I am positively sure I am thriving superbly well than before… Hehehe… So you see.. There is a difference between a man and a gentleman
For you guys out there… Honestly.. Are you a man or a gentleman? Just look at your wife.. Or your girlfriend… Are they successful??? It should answer the question… It’s that simple… Hehehe…
Cheers :)
Thursday, September 13, 2007
Reborn...
Eureka! Eureka! Finally! Finally I'm able to do what I want... Initially, I just felt like upgrading myself and yes! I'm doing it! Mentally, physically and spriritually... It feels great to be one step ahead than others.. (I prefer to think so..hehehe)...
Studying again for future career advancement... Not everyone has the privilege to do so.. And getting an additional qualification in a totally unrelated field is even more challenging... Although it's extremely difficult to cope at times, but I know this is worth it.. Money can't buy knowledge.. And nobody can take knowledge away from anyone.. (Nah.. As if la I'm that smart... Hahahah)..
I'm PROUD of myself... Been able to go through very bad times... Being hurt and hospitalized wasn't a fun thing... But being able TO LOVE and to BE LOVED again is something that I treasure most right now... It seems like my life's complete... And I'm contented for what I have... An understanding partner, a supportive family, whacky friends and a handful of good friends... Hehehe... Moreover, my circle of friends which include successful people; doctors, lawyers, engineers, overseas bankers, senior computer analysts and businessmen had enlighten me to view things at different perspectives... And that made me to make these conclusions:-
Cheers ;)
Studying again for future career advancement... Not everyone has the privilege to do so.. And getting an additional qualification in a totally unrelated field is even more challenging... Although it's extremely difficult to cope at times, but I know this is worth it.. Money can't buy knowledge.. And nobody can take knowledge away from anyone.. (Nah.. As if la I'm that smart... Hahahah)..
I'm PROUD of myself... Been able to go through very bad times... Being hurt and hospitalized wasn't a fun thing... But being able TO LOVE and to BE LOVED again is something that I treasure most right now... It seems like my life's complete... And I'm contented for what I have... An understanding partner, a supportive family, whacky friends and a handful of good friends... Hehehe... Moreover, my circle of friends which include successful people; doctors, lawyers, engineers, overseas bankers, senior computer analysts and businessmen had enlighten me to view things at different perspectives... And that made me to make these conclusions:-
- I CANNOT be labelled as immature by a single individual when the entire world says I'm a matured person. Why? Because that single person does not plan his life. Failing to plan is planning to fail. Furthermore, he lacks self-confidence, is complacent and has unconstructive hobbies. By the way, that person suffers from inferiority complex.
- I am a THINKER not a worrier. I think a lot and am able to create my own hypotheses on any given situation. In any scenario, it is better to have back-up plans. A stitch in time saves nine.
- I am BEAUTIFUL not ugly. I may not have a perfectly symmetrical face and a drop dead gorgeus body but I am beautiful in my way. It's not for others to judge. Point one finger at me and three fingers are pointing at you!
- I am the WINNER not the loser! Yes, even if I've been outcasted! Why? My life is getting better each day and I've learnt a lot from history! There's always a silver lining somewhere!!! Not just behind the clouds..
Honestly, it's great to feel revitalized and energized again... I'm surrounded in an aura of positive 'chi'... It's vital to be with POSITIVE PEOPLE... They'll REJUVENATE you when you are at your weakest.. Am superbly lucky to have them in my life... Thanks a lot to my dear Mic... And my hottie pal.. Hehehehe....
Cheers ;)
Monday, August 27, 2007
Life, Love and Lies
To most people, life is full of love.. But to some others, life is full of lies.. Lame lies... A person can say he or she loves you but it could be a lie.. Why? Because true love is unconditinal love.. Besides our parents, I obviously don't think anyone can give us unconditionally... When we are in trouble, in shock, in pain, trouble, they will stick by us... It is really hard to find someone who does not have any blood tie with us is able to treat and love us the same like our parents do..
Life can be full of misery.. Unkept promises, unreasonable explanations, etc by someone whom we treasure most will drive us up the wall.. When someone says "I will only do this or that when you fulfill some requirements," that is just bullshit... Plain BULL SHIT!!! It is called love with conditions...
Love and lies go hand in hand... A perfect couple, matchmade from heaven... Hahaha.. Why do I say that?? Figure it yourself...
When you divert all your energy to someone you love, you tend to fall easily when things go awry... Heartbroken, devastated, you have lost hope in everything you do and life seems miserable and painstaking...
You find it hard to believe yourself... It is not because you cannot trust others, the fact is, you can't trust yourself... Afraid of making the blunder again... Afraid of history repeating itself again.. Afraid that it is a cycle of love and lies that never end...
A perfect analogy will be when you buy something exquisite which you adore most at a very high price and then trash it away after a while because it is not the current fashion anymore... Thus, you will regret as you had waster so much on it...
The truth is, people tend to change.. You may like something now but HOW SURE are you that you will love it for the rest of you life? You have the authority to change and the power to choose! So what is the point staying faithful when you don't like it anymore?
Hence, what is unconditional love is extremely subjective... How do you define it?? In my opinion, I feel unconditional love is contributing my whole load of energy loving and adoring without any requirements... I HATE and is DISGUSTED by anyone who sets a prerequisite for loving someone...
Think again, maybe think harder... It really PISSES me off when someone sets something stupid in a relationship... It's weird and crazy... But don't be surprised!!! There are dudes who behave in such a way...
Cheers...
Life can be full of misery.. Unkept promises, unreasonable explanations, etc by someone whom we treasure most will drive us up the wall.. When someone says "I will only do this or that when you fulfill some requirements," that is just bullshit... Plain BULL SHIT!!! It is called love with conditions...
Love and lies go hand in hand... A perfect couple, matchmade from heaven... Hahaha.. Why do I say that?? Figure it yourself...
When you divert all your energy to someone you love, you tend to fall easily when things go awry... Heartbroken, devastated, you have lost hope in everything you do and life seems miserable and painstaking...
You find it hard to believe yourself... It is not because you cannot trust others, the fact is, you can't trust yourself... Afraid of making the blunder again... Afraid of history repeating itself again.. Afraid that it is a cycle of love and lies that never end...
A perfect analogy will be when you buy something exquisite which you adore most at a very high price and then trash it away after a while because it is not the current fashion anymore... Thus, you will regret as you had waster so much on it...
The truth is, people tend to change.. You may like something now but HOW SURE are you that you will love it for the rest of you life? You have the authority to change and the power to choose! So what is the point staying faithful when you don't like it anymore?
Hence, what is unconditional love is extremely subjective... How do you define it?? In my opinion, I feel unconditional love is contributing my whole load of energy loving and adoring without any requirements... I HATE and is DISGUSTED by anyone who sets a prerequisite for loving someone...
Think again, maybe think harder... It really PISSES me off when someone sets something stupid in a relationship... It's weird and crazy... But don't be surprised!!! There are dudes who behave in such a way...
Cheers...
Sunday, August 19, 2007
Is Life Complicated?
Once again, Life's so complicated... Why? Because I'm making it so... Simple things can be settled easily and yet, I tend to ponder too much over small issues..
Life's not a destination, life's a journey.. And I wonder why I am still unable to DRILL that into my head... There've been major changes in my life recently and I am quite amazed it happened within a short period..
Firstly, I quit my job, practically a 24-hour notice to continue my studies... Until this moment, this instance and this second, I am still thinking whether it was the right choice... I can't turn back, not now... Or else, I would end up in the cooking pot! My parents'll will literally 'cook' me alive!!!!!!!
Secondly, I've decided to open up my heart to someone really positive and great... Thanks to Michael for making my once dull and pathetic life colourful again... I love him dearly.. Someone who knows how to make me laugh when I'm down, and is always by my side, respects my thoughts and feelings, without making fun of them...
Finally, I'm thankful that my ex dumped me.. Or else, I wouldn't think that I would still be in demand... Although I am not a drop-dead gorgeous babe, but there are few people who are interested in me... Hahaha.... And I can't believe it.. Honestly, it had never ever crossed my mind that someone would want to be more than friends with me!!! Hahahaha!!!! Definitely feels great...
To forget the past is impossible but, I will make it a point to take that as a hard lesson learnt... Even thought when I feel that my life's getting more meaningful each day, I am still not contented..
Why? Because I'm facing a few issues... A conflict of interest within myself... I've Ms. Myself, Ms. Dumbass and Ms. Lovesick stuck with me... A snapshot of the 3 personalities are as follows:-
Ms. Myself- Wacky, crazy but rational... Always a thinker.. However, most of the time, she would think too much and ends up frustrated and agitated...
Ms. Dumbass- She cannot analyze thing properly, impatient, easily irritated by issues pertaining to studies, work and emotions...
Ms. Lovesick- To her, love's everything, nothing is superior than that.. Believes that sacrificing everything is the key to everlasting fairytale love... Only wants to be with the one she loves everyday, every minute, every second and every moment..
These 3 characters are always arguing with each other... Ms. Dumbass's constantly nagging Ms. Lovesick to let go the love of ther life, because she wants to have more time improving herself in her studies as she is so stupid...
On the other hand, Ms. Lovesick is lecturing Ms. Dumbass that love is the key to everything.. Anything can only be solved with true and pure love..
And then, Ms. Myself is constantly in a dilemma because she can't control the irrational arguments that Ms. Dumbass and Ms. Lovesick are fighting on... In the end, she feels bogged down by unnecessary issues and is stressed up for nothing... She keeps telling them to settle their problems themselves, but it seems that neither sides are listening to her...
What should Ms. Myself do? Should she kill Ms. Dumbass and Ms. Lovesick? Or should she just leave them alone? Conflicting thoughts and personalities will eventually conquer Ms. Myself if she doesn't eradicated either one of them...
Sigh... Once again... Life seems so complicated... I do hope it'll get better tomorrow.. Tomorrow is a brand new day... It should be good... Be positive... Even if I can't, I will make sure I'll do something about it as I've Michael sticking to me like 'elephant gum.' Hahahaha.... And I love it..
Also, I've my hot sexy, babe friend who often reminds me that life's a journey, not a destination..
Cheers...
Life's not a destination, life's a journey.. And I wonder why I am still unable to DRILL that into my head... There've been major changes in my life recently and I am quite amazed it happened within a short period..
Firstly, I quit my job, practically a 24-hour notice to continue my studies... Until this moment, this instance and this second, I am still thinking whether it was the right choice... I can't turn back, not now... Or else, I would end up in the cooking pot! My parents'll will literally 'cook' me alive!!!!!!!
Secondly, I've decided to open up my heart to someone really positive and great... Thanks to Michael for making my once dull and pathetic life colourful again... I love him dearly.. Someone who knows how to make me laugh when I'm down, and is always by my side, respects my thoughts and feelings, without making fun of them...
Finally, I'm thankful that my ex dumped me.. Or else, I wouldn't think that I would still be in demand... Although I am not a drop-dead gorgeous babe, but there are few people who are interested in me... Hahaha.... And I can't believe it.. Honestly, it had never ever crossed my mind that someone would want to be more than friends with me!!! Hahahaha!!!! Definitely feels great...
To forget the past is impossible but, I will make it a point to take that as a hard lesson learnt... Even thought when I feel that my life's getting more meaningful each day, I am still not contented..
Why? Because I'm facing a few issues... A conflict of interest within myself... I've Ms. Myself, Ms. Dumbass and Ms. Lovesick stuck with me... A snapshot of the 3 personalities are as follows:-
Ms. Myself- Wacky, crazy but rational... Always a thinker.. However, most of the time, she would think too much and ends up frustrated and agitated...
Ms. Dumbass- She cannot analyze thing properly, impatient, easily irritated by issues pertaining to studies, work and emotions...
Ms. Lovesick- To her, love's everything, nothing is superior than that.. Believes that sacrificing everything is the key to everlasting fairytale love... Only wants to be with the one she loves everyday, every minute, every second and every moment..
These 3 characters are always arguing with each other... Ms. Dumbass's constantly nagging Ms. Lovesick to let go the love of ther life, because she wants to have more time improving herself in her studies as she is so stupid...
On the other hand, Ms. Lovesick is lecturing Ms. Dumbass that love is the key to everything.. Anything can only be solved with true and pure love..
And then, Ms. Myself is constantly in a dilemma because she can't control the irrational arguments that Ms. Dumbass and Ms. Lovesick are fighting on... In the end, she feels bogged down by unnecessary issues and is stressed up for nothing... She keeps telling them to settle their problems themselves, but it seems that neither sides are listening to her...
What should Ms. Myself do? Should she kill Ms. Dumbass and Ms. Lovesick? Or should she just leave them alone? Conflicting thoughts and personalities will eventually conquer Ms. Myself if she doesn't eradicated either one of them...
Sigh... Once again... Life seems so complicated... I do hope it'll get better tomorrow.. Tomorrow is a brand new day... It should be good... Be positive... Even if I can't, I will make sure I'll do something about it as I've Michael sticking to me like 'elephant gum.' Hahahaha.... And I love it..
Also, I've my hot sexy, babe friend who often reminds me that life's a journey, not a destination..
Cheers...
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